... =)

today- hmm wanna put dis poem in mah blog written by christian.

Lonely n 4gotten
U were there to comfort me...
Every minute...every moment
u were there with me...
U were the best...
a guy could ever have...
U cheered me up...
turned my frown upside down...
Wanna let u know how great u are...
for just bein who u are...
makin people happy...
and not at all sappy...
Thks 4 all the care u've shown...
for all tat u've shared...
written by: Chris
"4 all my frens who've been there 4 me =)"-christian.

hey today ish e worst wednesday ever huh? i not siao or wat.. i noe a moment ago i was sayin wednesday ish my fav. day of e week too.. but.. not dis particular wednesday which is today. its a sad wednesday. a day wif many decisions made n many things happening. even dou i wasn`t in sch.. i noe wats going on.. dudes` wif sources here n there. well i got 17/23 for dnt which ish very sarks yar. nvm, i always sarks. hahz.. so today i heard we had literature test.. =x aww man..!! 2 bad i din go` =x e best no need 2 take e test.. haiz-

n now donno y m i bloggin.. should be doin my science hwk n studyin for mah chinese retest =s 9.53pm liao. i started writing frm 8pm somethin one lor.. den i stopped to watch charmed! yay.. okay thanks everyone for missing me in sch 2day wen i nvr come =x esp sarah huiyi n many many many more..! =x sounds like i dyin mah!? =.=~ den huiyi say me not there she raise flag weird weird de!? ooo.. mei xiang dao huh` jk.. i think ish she c too much of her fav teacher liao lar.. so anyhow oni! hahz den got ppl sms me summore so gan dong! ^^" jk bleh.. zzz` so as i was sayin. many things happen today.. so 2day i mite rite a long post..

1st. michelle! haiz.. mai sad sad le. maybe hes not worth it for all ur efforts lor seriously. he takes u 4 granted? n flirt lor. as u said u hate flirts right! hate him. its NO wrong =s and den as for dat girl.. its her prob if she wanna be so "bytchy" doin all those things.. i cant believe wat i heard. ish there a lot of benefits gettin e guy u wan thru underhand means n all those.. its like omg` so sarks.. n i bwg. wen dat gal grow up will she continue bein like dis? if she does she sure regret one wat.. so no need 2 care bout her de! i`ll be dere wen u need me.-
n christian.. lol` my jie mei liao. nvm =) i oso noe u very sad lar. mayb its my fault for tellin u dat in e 1st place. but its betta noein now n stop rather den bein hurt deeper n deeper n donno a thing? at least now u noe betta den later noe.. so don worry. n yea, i will oso be dere ok! right behind u wen u need me. lol!~ cheer up. jus now u were so sad.. n all den i oso got influence by a lot of ppl.. including my own prob.. made me cry oso =.='' mayb no one noes.. but, haiz. no comments.

argh! i actually wan type much more. i jus cant bring myself to say a lot og things. too many things in fact. haiz, listenin 2 broken on perfect 10. jus wen i need 2 song =) haiz. okay i think i got one of my problems off my heart. mayb not relli off.. jus said it out finally afta all dis times i`ve been bearing wif it. =s mayb yes maybe not. donno how 2 say oso. haiz. really sad..
*let me go if its ain`t true- yea.

omg.. im very happie =X not cos i nvr go sch 2day yar. i wan go sch one lar =.=!! hahz, hehe! its cos i kinda "clean up my comp.. now feel dat e comp so fast n betta liao -_-`'' lol =p summore 2day is wednesday! my fav.day of e week other den saturday n sunday duh`.. cos got flag-raising which i kinda like`!! hahaz. n den 2day got charmed.. pls rmb 2 watch it everyone! especially OON weipin! always come n "scream" at me wen he din watch! say i nvr remind him! OVER. hmm den 2day ish mah jiemei`s birthday which ish zHuEn`!!

Happy Birthday to Chay Zhu En. =D
//Jie mei`
//woodwind buddy
//2/5ers.
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haiz. now i understand..
i relli do.
so stop evrything.
let me go-
or no. i`ll go myself.

da jia haoz. =x aldou i don feel hao =s haha. 2day! 1st lesson geog. sianzation! n mr lee suddenly added one more topic to test man` siao one =x but okay lar. dat topic was easy.. =x about recycle reuse n reduce crapp de haha. den had pe. went up to hall wif huiyi to play badminton lor! me n huiyi ya noe. den very tiring one play wif her. =x shoot high angle low angle wateva sai all got =.=~ n she told me sth.. which i din expect to hear frm her. she said e way i am now isnt e same as last time.. hmm` okay lar. n she says i look DEPRESS. x= eh i frm last time until now ish actually liddat de. n den she oso say wat i like got a lot of probs liddat` maybe lar.. donno` or huiyi tink too much!! ^^~ den after pe got english. siala my incident report pass rite on e spot.. 15/30 HAHA` =p recess liao den went sumwhere lor.. wif sarah =x talk like wat only.. den went back class got 3we tot no assembly! mr low oso lar.. =x n he let us c e class foto 1st sia. haha` very nice =) 2/5 rawks. =D but e formal pix hor. everyone look extremly dao. =x hahz, den got maths!! learn a lot again! ^0^ den we had art. aiyo dat art teacher mr goh damn crap CRAP! bth lor! cos we like siao siao shout across table to talk mah.. =x den i tlel huiyi "wo ai ni" den me goh go n say a lot of crap to us say its abnormal donno wth lor. =x peng only! n i drew a durian n apple. side by side. =x contrasting mah` den looks weird. lalala.. haiz =x den nOw SICK lar. i don wan sick DON WAN sick.. -___- but it seems my fever high liao =/ haben take temperature.. heck care!? hahz. den sorethroat, donno wat to do. cant seem to concentrate on anyting. wan explode le =.=!
-a thousand miles-vanessa*

todays a great day. supposingly. =) certainly tired as usual.. haiz. =x zzz`!! den durin` pe ish like one of e lessons i enjoyed e most. =D funny sia they all. played badminton wif vera zhuen n huiyi.. den i teamed wif zhuen[don ask me why i oso donno lol.] ok so we pplayed against huiyi n vera! we hit so funny one lar.. =.=~ u noe wen we serve.. yar den zhuen go n serve it in his so called "girl's way" s2pid! den at one time.. e shuttlecork fly to e tree there!! den huiyi summore go n chiong to hit it! in e end she bang into e tree. LOL =x peng! den for a minute or so we were laffin until cannot hit properly liao lor`!! so over only, den huiyi keep sayin me.. say i keep missin n i nvr use my HEART to concentrate! =x over! den she say zhuen n vera oso nvr concentrate keep missin only, overation man`!! in e end she miss oso like siao liddat! wahaha. farnie scene!! so zhuen said 2 huiyi he wan use his heart to play! (yong xin wan) den he go n throw e shuttlecork n rleli use his HEART there to hit?! understand not.. haha nvm =p FUNNY. omg lor laff till siao liao` very long nvr laff until so `real` le.. =x nvm suan le =D hoho.. den after sch needa stay back 4 maths file check. haiz` 15 marks over 20 nia.. a1 liao but still not good lar.. haiyar donno man` =.= but did evrythin dat can be done liao! bout 4pm den can go home. tired tired day man =x still got chinese retest tml.. confirm one! today jus did e test haben mark but i noe i will fail le cos out of 100words i oni got like less den 50words. =x kweel huh!? hahz lalala.. oh yar! i nvr rite bout wat i did in malacca 4 dat sat n sunday.. okay gonna rite it!
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1st wen we reach malacca! check in the hotel. 3 stars nia` sai =x i mean i care a lot bout e hotel we stay in one lor. =x i don like those lan lan de.. at least 4stars mah`.. or e best 5stars lar! giv us 3stars de so sai` aldou its okay n pretty neat.. but donno lar jus don like it! =p so we went to some places of interest like st.peter church. a relli old church.. yet nice, wen u go in n look around its e presence of god dats still around. theres like no one there.. except 4 two old person hu kneel and prayed. e chairs r those wooden one. its e relli old n traditional one. wif e big cross in front of e whole church. =) very nice. okay! so we even went to eat "nonya" food. curry spices! all e hot stuffs. ^^~ i love it =x hahz`!! n at nite we went to e pasa malam there.. bought a lot of crap stuffs =x hoho` but i bought a bag oso` heehee.. walk until leg pain lor. cos its a long stretch of pasa malam.. after dat finally went back hotel to SLP! whee! e air con so freaking cold man =x its like in e morning wen i woke up i went to look at e temperature its 17degrees celcius or sth!? siao sia, donno hu adjust it so siao one.. n sunday! in e morning went to a shoppin centre opposite our hotel lor.. big big one.. =x den bought some stuffs there too.. no needa elaborate liao lar, so sian diao only -_-`.. okay den ate lunch man`!! very nice de chicken rice balls?! =x haha!! relli nice man.. RELLI nice. =x oni go malacca den can eat dao dat type one` siala! relli nice huh`.. haha`!! so nxt went to e bus n started on e jorney back 2 singapore.. in e bus at 1st i tot i got no sms man! =x cos we reached e singapore custom there liao? den got reception mah. =x i kinda expected sms to be recieved in e 1st place!! but i waited long long oso no sms liddat lor! i so sad man =x tot no one sms me one.. =xx keke`!! okay so in e end my hp was relli laggin! it started recieving about 8sms! -__-` read till siao huh =p keke.. okay den went dinner at bout 6pm n WENT HOME N STUDY. YEA STUDY! actually i studied chinese but wonderin y i still fail rite?! cos ytd so tired study liao no use de` morning wake up forget everythin. muhaha` siao liao =p
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den now! gonna do history source based worksheet which was supposed 2 be hand up 2day.. but i think we nvm liao lar. miss chen wun scold de.. or will she!? haiyar heckkkk =x den later gonna learn chinese AGAIN n oso geography.. yawns gonna pia/chiong/rush!! =p
-don say u love me- m2m*

ZZZz

___On the edge___
Have u ever feel like breaking down.
Lock youself in your room.
Where no ones hear you screaming in you heart.
On the edge of breaking down.
And no ones there to save you.
Sick of being left out.
Loneliness resides in you no matter wat.
-nothing feels alright.
Telling youself you're gonna be okay.
Feel like you've been pushed around.
And you're trying to pull youself back.
When the stars go blind.
Darkness starts to flood your eyes.
Close your eyes.
And you'll wake up to another day.
When you're falling behind.
And believe you can stand up.
You fall again.
Deeper each time.
Until you no longer fall.
As your hopes..
are no longer there.
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erm.. its not sad or anythin.
im okay seriously.. so don come rushin n askin me wats wrong.
cos im fine.
=)

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today is thursday`! hu m i kiddin. i almost wanted 2 post one sentence for my blogpost jus now. but guessed i didnt of cos.. so nvm. as dou hu`ll care yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! hahaz.. sci was interesting wif e eperiments n stuffs.. den had english.. maths, n finally mt for today.. den durin music was fun lor. mr low let us watch e movie sch of rock.. siala` i love dat movie one!! its so NICE. yea` n im appearing offline okay ppl. so don anyhow think i block u or wat =x hahz, appeared offline so as to study 4 zao ju.. don think too much anyway` =D yea. alrite?! cya. [[look wat've u done now - jet))

lalala.. welcome to my life!!!

welcome to my life- hey.. mah fav song of e week yea. by simple plan, heard it on radio in e morning wen goin 2 sch. =) den theres like a lot of hwk.. flag raising was normal` i guess.. n den went back 2 dnt class 1st lesson` GOT TEST Yea?! n we werent even imform.. i was like jus goin `omg* wen huiyi sms n told me got test oso.. sian diao sia` den sarah was absent` lucky her?! =x haha.. no lar, she mus do e test oso sooner or later. den e test was anyhow.. marjorie sat wif me as sarah was absent.` quite "fun" sia if u noe wat i mean =x aiya.. shes crappy! but interesting lar.. lol` n den mr wong's lesson boring. =.= donno wat he teachin at times man, den e whole class diam diam one.. obviously we were doin other things liao. if we r quiet.. theres only two reasons dat could cause it. either its TOO boring n we r jus so bored to even tok 2 our frenz.. 2nd reason? we r jus tired.. den no energy to tok oso.. haha` yea! den we had form teacher period today!! siala.. selvam came. =.= she came into our class we were all gaspin for air =x hehz.. den had ipw which was as good as free time. =.= i admit was pretty bored cos sarah din come. but den tok to chris aiman`.. den quite crappy too =x wat marroon 5 wat songs` hahz, den muru came my grp i went 2 his grp ^^v so in e end drew some silly things or issit?! on a a4 ppr given by vera.. den she keep tokin bout titanic. too bad ytd i tired den nvr watch it. but i still rmb e story yea!? =) memory POWER BOOST` haha.. yawns`!! after sch huiyi n shirin treated us pizza! at 1st we wanted 2 go cwp wif vera n teng2 to eat e chicken rize arhz.. den huiyi oso` sekali later she say she feel heartpain cos she pay to treat us e pizza den she nvr eat very wasted.. yea i oso wanna eat one sia =x so we were like "happie" in a sense wen vera told us she nvr wait for us but go wif teng liao.. so we were like act act say nvm den we sound so sad. VERY bad hor we all!? we were actually happi cos we get to stay n eat pizza liao.. muhaha`!! crazy galz` den eat e pizza in e council room. hmm.. YUM!! =x i love pizza`!! lalala

ni shi wo de mo li.. =x

yozZz. =x ytd obviously bloggin sai. wanted to rite sth in my blog ytd but donno wat i was doin den it was empty n i click post. wth huh` den c liao oso pek chek` haha.. i suddenly feel dat e ws teacher gav us very kong bu[scary] i have like EIGHT(8) sets of specimen exam pprs to do.. n its mainly science n maths.. ms fu n mr goh sia.. wat they wan!? 8SETS.. donno how 2 do finish liao` den now so freakin tired after band as usual. 3rd clarinets` 3rd clarinets.. lalala` no need to care over it le lar.. den nowadays so happie liao. cos finally i cant don think bout anything.. be free yea. =D i think THRU le.. its OVER. hee =) alrite den enuff crap 4 now. guess my ipw grp oso kinda screwed sia =s chris n aiman r always.. like donno how 2 do or issit jus me anyhow sayin.. nvm` e frenship is straining. many sad things happening recently too. zhuen arhz take care =.=~ haiya.. donno wat 2 say liao.. boring day in sch oso.. geog lesson.. yawns.. english test..? haiz. den art?! crappie.. =s zzz!! another day gone! tml will be betta.. i guesss..... =D

... lol

=)

hmm.. its a sunday today. so went chc[city harvest church] today. wif mich n tz newcomer huh. =D unfortunately sarah woke up late n couldnt make it. but nvm she'll come nxt week of cos =) den teng so funny.. suddenly in msn msg me say she found my dis blogger by searchin in yahoo?! =.= diaon huh`!! =p wah seh! teng very cute oso.. ask me type out all those expressions like -> -_-` =.= =) =D =( o.O O.O <- all this lar.. haha! c liao wan lafff peng! okay enuff crap. today after goin chc went take neoprint wif mich for e 1st time. i mean as in e 1st time onli we two both take! =) hmm.. she kinda `ruin` one of e fotos cos she spelled church wrong. she spelt as "churh" ya in one of e pics.. =x siala! haha` den she so ps wen she c dat foto cos spell wrongly` wahaha.. so dats bout all! =D now studyin n smsin.. n erh instant msgin. =x how huh.. mus off my hp n comp den can study fully.. lala` haha! =p

eeyer! overation.

ni hao-
yea. added a lot of stuffs 2 my blog eh?
ok not a lot. jus some music n sum lines below there x=
=) hahz, doin my maths yea
realized it'll get fun wen u understand it.
i suppose! =x crazy sial.
today went sch chao early. siansation. =x
den mt teacher nvr come again. hey i yearn 2 learn mt one ok =X
or else our chinese gonna rottttttttttttt like hell..
n den today maths fun fun =D shiok time =x
maths made me so relakzed n happy 2day =x laff until siao man.
crazy mr goh use pam n yy de names in solvin maths. wahaha!!
2/5ers lookin outside of e class like nobody's buiness oso.. haha =x
den c ppl everywhere anyhow woot weet =x haha!! freakin funny =p!!
den during recess huiyi gastric until very cham sia..
i summore bring her 2 council room wif her 2 rest..
den she wanna act cool still wen gastric pain like siao.. almost fainting sia she
den i hold her huh` she ask me don hold! wat ONLY
cos wen she c teacher she ps don wan let teacher c she so weak or wat lor =.=
peng man dat sai huiyi!
den tell me wat if she c ko more den 2 times sure will sth happen 2 her.
yea i guess! lol` den i walk wif her frm council room to 2/5classroom.
it was a TOUGH jorney for her lar..
den i oso mus slowly accompany her..
n den walk back to 2/5 everyone insists she go sickbed.. includin ms lim sc.
so huiyi WENT 2 sickbed
she keep complaining say she wan go spelling n learn english.. siala
she love it huh!! =x ok lar. i oso quite like miss lim lessons =)
she very good huh`.. she don scold me n huiyi de nowadays donno y =x hee hee
maybe oni we will noe why *winks* lalala`
den after sch went cwp wif sarah to eat..!
kfc lor.. haha, but she nvr eat.. i offered to giv her a lot of stuffs 2 eat
but she REJECTED. in e end she only accept a bread frm me
sounds like accept diamond ring or wat sia lol`
ok den zhuen n chris came frm behind.. maybe did some magic hu noes =x HAHA CRAP =x
den they sit wif us n chat n chat n chat.. unfortunately on crap =.=
haha! haiz. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
sorri for dat sentence above. feelin stressed again.
-gone-

science!!

posthumous - means publish after e death of e author or followin or occurin after death =x
hey.. dats a new word i learnt in perfect 10 98.7fm. =D
love dat radio channel =x rawks man
crap! now doin science wb like wat only..
many pages sia, n summore its a difficult topic?! =x
chemical changes.. i don like dat topic =x
but still mus learn zzz!
den got a few difficult questions donno how 2 do..
haiz. nowadays ppl still havin` so many probs huh?
donno lar. crap irritating. stressed. blured!
=\ wow zhuen relli listened 2 my advice liao den go do his sci wb instead of gbin.
lol`!! jie mei mah. zzz
haiz!! =x i feeeel so sian diao of a lot of things recently.
nvm..! =D gonna work hard in studies..
lalala` mus get into 3/7 nxt yr if i can.. aldou aimin for 3/6 which i noe i cant =.=
so mus 3/7!! HAIX.
but mus work hard like siao lar..
no other way out! =x
cheers haha
eh!! i jus heard quote of e day in perfect 10 too.
its somethin dat goes like dis.
in life theres 3 words jus to describe it. `it goes go.
cool eh!! hope it inspire some of u hu reads it =x
i guess. =D

=.=

ytd again no post wor. haha, basically too tired after band n yea? so wen i reached home online yet wanna slp. in e end i study sci n lie dwn until slp lor. =D hee, 2day sian oso. in sch 1st lesson dnt liao. =.= liew, cannot make it =.=!! at least ipw maths n pe betta =.= maths i think e whole class paid so much attention including me lar. den we UNDERSTAND it liao!! yea =) n 2dae had class foto-taking. as fun as last time =) imformal one donno wat happen 2 e boys =.= accordin 2 sources muru pulled one of em yea? n den chain reaction? all of em fall backwards frm e bench. (they were standin) lol. nvm, but it'll turn out nice 4 all e fotos i supposed =D yea. den 2day ish bryan bday huh! he in obs` lol. still wanna wish him happie bday. =)

erhh.. nvr post ytd haha.
so i'll post all about ytd alrite!!
ytd went 2 city harvest church wif sarah chris n bryan.
after such a long period of not goin 2 church..
i feel betta goin 2 dat church ytd!!
hey thanks 2 chris 4 askin us 2 go yea? ;)
ok. so e whole service was great.
e church building was so nice`!! =)
n theres a rooftop garden or sth?
n yea. happie bday 2 a lot of ppl.
ytd was earnest`s bday heh. jus got 2 noe him but anyway,
we all wished him happy lar. lol =)
n they actually baked chesscake for his bday!
(they r all e ppl in e cell grp yea =D)
n of cos we got a slice of e cheesecake too.
its so NICE!! somemore got cookie one. siala! =p
den we took a tour around e whole church..
relli cool yea.
haha, den later went 4 dinner wif em,
n den went seperate ways while me n sarah took neoprints.
so dats all for ytd!!
n *impt* very happy huh!
cos 2dae a lot of ppl wanna come to e church too!
even yong shin, sherillin, n erm shung hua?! haha!
hehe =) 2/5!! =p
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okay. now for 2day.
1st day of sch after a holidays.
kinda normal goin 2 sch =)
2day was great.
nth can ruin my day not even a darn teacher.
(some of u mite noe wat happen yea? =p)
nvm i don wanna write bout it cos i m guai.
don wan ruin mah image =x
wat only. lol`
but its quite s2pid lar e whole ting..
but relli make me seems bad liddat lol`..
HU CARES! =p
lalala..! sci was great 2day,
erhh.. yea bout e notes n stuffs. bleh
n den cam history.
as crazy as ever
miss cheng sia =.=! siao liao
she always wanna fight! =X
haha! den there was music.
COOL STUFF!
we watched out performances n other classes one.
nice sial..
laff till we all peng
n we all came 2 a conclusion dat mr low mite haf somethin haywire goin up there.
n yea. =X (2/5ers get wat i mean? ahem.)
den mt.. go study area.
like shtz. don tok bout it ppl =)
as i said i don wan my mood 2 be RUIN!
=X heehee.. hu cares man.
=pp

My husband is a scientist by profession, I love him for his steady-being nature,
and I love the warm feeling while leaning against his broad shoulder. Three years in the courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, I am getting tired of it, the reasons of me
loving him before has now transform into the cause of all the restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive and exquisite when it comes to relationship and feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, as though a little boy yearning for candy. And my husband, is just a contrast of me, his lack of sensitivity, and of all, inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I want a divorce. "Why?" he asked, shocking. "I am tired, there aren't reasons for everything in the world" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thoughts the whole night with cigarette lighted all the times.
My feeling of disappointment is getting intense, a man who can't even express his detainment, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked :" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.
Looking deep into his eyes, I slowly answered : "Here is a question, if you can find the answer in my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I love a flower at a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that making you pick the flower will cause death, will you do it for me?" He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow.." My heart just sink by listening to his respond.

The next morning, he was not around, and I saw a piece of paper with his scratching writing,
underneath a glass of warm milk, It goes..

Dear,
"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to further explain the reasons " this first lines has already break my heart. I continue reading....
"You can only type with computer and always messed up the programs in the PC, and cries in front of screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.
You always left the house key behind, I have to save my legs to rush home for opening door for you.
You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to lead you the way.
You always has the cramp whenever your "good friend" approach every month, I have to save my palm so that I can calm the cramp at your tummy.
You like to stay indoor, and I worry that you will be infected by infantileautism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.
You always stare at the computers, and that is no good to your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs.
I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoying the sunshine and the beautiful sand.. tell you the colour of flowers, just like the glow on your young face..
Thus, my dear, before I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do.. I would not pick the flower, and die.."
My tears drops on the letters, and blurred the ink of his hand writing.. and I resume my reading..
"And now, dear.. you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied with these answers, please open the door of our house, I am standing there,with your favorite bread and fresh milk..
I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, with his hand holding tight to the glass of milk and the piece of bread..

Oh I am sure no one ever love me as much, and now I have decided to leave the flower alone..
That's life, or some said, love, when one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fade away, and one tend to ignore the true love lies in between the peace and dullness.Love shows in any form, even a very little and corny form, it has never been a model, it could be the most incurious form.. flowers, romantic moments is only the bubbles formed on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of truelove stands.. and that's our life..

>> a story bah. i think in email oso got.. =X
but very nice so post it here..

- the reason - lalala`!! suddenly wanna listen 2 dat song. haha` read harry potter n e prisoner of azkaban for e erm.. 3rd time? =x siao liao huh`!! but donno leh.. cos i read till headache. PAIN SIA`!! bth le zzz. 2dae i've basically slacked like siao. n seriously i haben touch my hwk. how kweel ^^` haha. mayb gonna do all of it tomorrow lor.. c 1st`.. cos 2dae still feelin sum how sicklish` =X harhar. OvEr`!!

haix. feel so sarks. stomach pain like ah sai. den fever oso like wat only. its only fever huh. hahahaha` lalala`~ dieee.. sumtimes i jus hate havin fever. but.. nvm =) den tomorrow is sarah's bday! HaPPy bDay aH sOtx!! =pp but so swey of me. fall sick 2dae den tml cannot go celebrate wif her.. =\ haish!! zzz. s2pidddd! den cut my hair sia 2dae.. no comments. brain can`t even work as well =X n hor. enuff of copycats hor. why always liddat one. copy copy` fark sia. tmd =s very wat leh`!! enuff. i don wan 2 state wat dat person do.. but so many times copy n copy. can stop anot? read my blog liao den kinda copy e stuff i rite in my blog n rite in ya own blog. wats e meanin? zzz. freak. haix

wah! so freakin sick sia! =s keke. again i cannnot rite my blogger in e normal wae. sarks man. =s maybe i can consider writing in my old journal. nicer =) 2dae band so nice huh! mr neo in super good mood bah. love e song celebrations 4 woodwinds n purcussion! nice sial! sad part soo soo sad huH! =x over`!! 2dae relli sick le. currently readin harry potter n e prisoner of azkaban over again verri nice lor =D den read again. haha`!! tml mite not be goin 2 my math remedial liao lor. haiz. =\ sadden.

haiyorr

eek! my blog sarks!! i oni can rite in html format leh.
den i lazy put html to color some of my words!
haha` but heck lar jus rite =x
hee! 2dae is like one of e best band pracs i went 4!!
its LONG long since i ate lunch outside durin band..
summore last time is wif wp zhen hao they all mah`..
very fun.. miss them in band! =(
but 2dae!
new generation =X
become me sarah nat zhuen n chris go eat lunch at e coffeeshop!
muhaha!! ^-^v
den me sarah nat n zhuen name ourselves e 4 jie meis
keep hi-5ing each other until hand pain arh`!!
den christian is our PAPA!
he somemore treat us drinks 2dae.. siala!
haha!!
very "kuai le" in a sense compared 2 all e unhappiness dat happened sumhow recently..
keke`!!
den at 1st mr neo like "almost" gonna eat lunch wif us..
but we sort of run away?!
WAHAHA! s2pid!! =x
peng!! but actually mr neo can be good wen his mood is good
but wen his mood bad like sai liao lor.
=X haha rubbish!
okay! den 2dae wen we eat finish liao wan go back sch mah..
den we walk back!
while walkin back so fun huh! =X
at 1st me sarah nat..
wan pluck e leaves of e "trees" arh..
ya noe those sort of small small one..
den pluck a lot! go throw zhuen n chris
den we started runnin behind them cos they walk quite fast..
n edn zhuen donno y he go n run!
den chris toot toot dwn there let us throw e leaves on his head =.=!~
n den e shock part happen siala!!!
=X heehee nat im sorrrrieeeee
ok! nat was like runnin gonna chase after zhuen!
den she fall dwn!
alrite but i din c e part wen she fall dwn
all i noe was dat she did fall n she landed FLAT on e grass!!
i c liao.. i like.. WAH PENG`!!
her face smack on e grass liddat..
very chio de position =X
den dat zhuen can still cross road liao!
n nat was lying there. DOTZ
den wen we go help her.. all laff till peng lar!
so kong BU =X haha!!
hee. =D
jie mei rawks. lol

haiz. realli nth 2 sae 2dae.
okay maybe not.
jus dat i choose 2 post in another blog of mine.
more personal in a sense.
hah. dis time no one even noes..
better lorh.
byebye

wo men dou mei cuo zhi shi bu shi he

wat a great saturdae 2dae =x everyone so freakin sick.. den i keep wonderin y i haben get sick.. LOL =x cos i usually will get sick de!! wat only huh! enuff! 2dae band sian diao.. i 4ever sian diao de lar in band. cos of mr neo lol. he sae we go back cop. sai` laa.. crappie lol. mr neo keep sayin dis sux dat sux. wateva sux lar. lol i sux! =X keke. haiz, chris arh.. don be so naive liao. some things too obvious le =p hiak hiak =x haiz haix haish hais haizx
siao sia meee =s
nth much 2 type. or u could sae not relli in e mood actually..
so.. suan le. =D

=) =( over? on off? crap

to on` or to off`!!
dats a big question up there huh`..
haha`!! over. haix
okay`.. so 2dae it =s a whole dae of questions..
yea.. keep askin dat question until we over oso =.=
i wan type out everythin bout it leh`!!
but cannot =p
haha.. currently dis mite be too big of a secret lor.
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okay`!! so 2dae was e last dae of sch b4 e sch one week holidae
planned 2 buy same bag wif sarah too
haix.. tomorrow got band.
wanted 2 miss it de yea?
cos.. hate it? =s
headache bah..
since i came back` =(
no idea whether wan go anot yet
haix..
verie funny lor.
i started by sayin i mite not go band de 1st..
den sarah sae she wan oso if i pon..
den went sch n tell nat..
nat oso sae she feel like not goin =s
apparently mr neo criticised her like crazzee
den zhuen oso sae he feelin sick n he not goin
liddat all not goin like so s2pid hor..
haha`!! but guess wat we said in sch =X
"band makes no difference w/o us."
well i guess so. =D whee =s
diaonz.. =X
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ok! 2dae got back report book sia`!!
haha..
i rite e marks here again!! =x
english = 52 haix i noe it sux.
chinese = 61 ^-^v improvement liao =x
maths = 50 sux sux sux.. =( haiz
science = 50 hate dis result.. mus work harder sial
geography = 56 no comments..
history = 81.8 ^-^v hoho!!
literature = 80 hu noes wat tsung is thinkin
dnt = 67.5 =)
art = 71 mr goh jus cant giv an a1 for anyting =.=~
now for e remarks`!! s2pid de..
amanda has been taking a more active role in class activities. she is involved as a student councillor and has a pleasant attitude. she will now need to concentrate on her studies and prepare for the end of year.
->>> haha s2pid yar. =s

haiz

i feel broken up`..
too many reasons why.
i cant seems 2 concentrate on anyting 2dae.
absolutely =)
haiz why?
i cant hold on for too long.
haha..
feel like givin up liao`!!
chris.
sarah.
zhuen.
should i let go liao. haha..
nvm..
gonna try 2 concentrate on doin mah hwk yea.
buai.
nitezy..

sians`...

haix.. 2dae donno y, feel lerthagic huh =x like wp liddat` harhar.. return 2 sch as usual den i 4got whether i got go spot check anot` ocuncillors de =s lol`!! die man if i nvr.. or did i? i havin short term memory.. sux sia`!! den math books all done le`!! after all e stayin up till 3am huh!! haha.. haix`.. nothin much 2 sae liao.. anywae.. wan sae thanks 2 chris n sarah 4 listenin 2 my "probs" huh.. aldou they oso a lot of probs.. they told me le huh`!! =D the sims rules yar.. family listen 2 each other probs =D me((mom)) sarah(daughter)) chris ((grandpa)) den aiman((son))!
n to zhuen oso.. thanks n sorrie too!
sometimes we jus cannot get along lar..
so sad yar.. haha.
zZz!
crappie`!! byex.

haix

i jus had 2 rite dis post for today. sarah mite noe the reason why yea. firstly can all e liars, freakers and wateva bi*ches there r in dis world freak off? n i mean yea. can no longer stand it liao. frens not meant to be so fake. its really over. seein thru` a lot of things liao. why? why mus u do dis? trouble-maker. copycat? totally enuff. was it 2 some restrictions i held on to myself dat i din wanted 2 rite dis post ealier, but now? no. its ebsolutely e final straw. i've waited 2 post 4 dis too long oreadi. i guess u jus hav 2 c it now yea? being alone is no sin. i've been alone ever since like donno wen, take example. i think bout 1 or 2 weeks ago, i went home myself in e evenin. alone yea? sat at a corner. look out of e window. thoughts were runnin thru my mind endlessly. like a gush of inspiration? but? e feeling of bein alone sux i admit, but of cos in times of our lives, we hav 2 go thru1 it at least once, till u found e person u feel dat u could realli trust. n wen u;ve found dat person cherish him/her be it ur fren or partner. y cant u seems 2 understand it? y mus u break up a perfectly normal innocent frenship by telling lies? is it fun? does it benefits? if it benefits u? how bout e fren u wnted 2 cherish? do u think ur fren will be happie? why. tell us e reasons why for once? i'm like e kinda person uh can go along wif anyone. why mus we jus stay put on one? ne reasonable. u mean u're jus gonna be alone if e onli 2 fren u can get along wif don come? wats dis seriously? theres so many ppl in dis world. so many yet u chose 2 ruin a frenship jus cos of.. jealousy? phobia of being alone? afraid? r dis all worth it? bad-mouthing n all, how do ppl manage dat? how would u feel if e victim was u? i'm realli disappointed rite now. feeling damn lousy. i had tot dis problem was over initially. din expect it 2 return as bad as ever, i'm tired of dis yea? can ppl jus try 2 understand it for once. pls. i've had enfff.. jus can all dis stop once n for all. let us take a break.. aldou i wasnt relli upset cos of dis. u made me as upset now after all u did. disappointed, sad, haix.. watever i had written here post no offence. i realli donno. dis is my blog i say wat i wan as usual, n pls.. to dat person. stop it, u can always tell anyone bout ur problems.. enuff.