im so tired.
helped out around e house 2day..
clearin stuffs n such.
mus b too much junk
cleared those stuffs 4 almost 4hours
zzz~ haben even touched a single hwk.
gosh, gonna rest now.
haish.

attitude changes.

Today arh... Somehow I know it'll end up dis way. dis FREN of mine. always sayin logic n stuffs, i noe u're wise... ya really. e way ur over-confidence puts me off. e way u try 2 act like u're really smart makes me thinks wat's wrong wid u? N den wen i tell u its pure attitude problem that had put pple off repeated, you're creating reasons to cover up. Thereafter u claimed it's cos of them influencing me to dislike you, well think bout it? How many a times had your attitude put me off to that great extent? There were countless times ; n den i realised. how did i put up n forgiv, perhaps not really 4getting so many times? n now u're gettin at it again. you don understand y ppl seems 2 hinder u here n dere, frens startin 2 dislike u n u're askin me why. wen u ask y, there would b an answer, but if e answer wouldnt get 2 ur head den wats e point? u're thinkin ppl r playin pranks on you... disturbing you, hating you.. u never thot why it had happened dis way eh? hab u even asked, "y is it only me?" u noe i feel so pitiful 4 u at times, yet so hateful at times at u too. its e word, attitude. like come on? you can sense it urself right... already been goin on 4 so long, ur disputes wid e ppl im friends with, n den sayin tings 2 make me dislike em, sometimes even repeating? wat the? do not judge ppl. n wonder y i even tend 2 avoid talking in a sense, freely with u? its only to avoide more quarrels. i don wanna b spendin e rest of my yr sitting wid a person who'll quarrel daily wid me? aint dat gonna b so torturous? 2day really made me wondered bout some tings, hmmh... guess so.

Yeah n to really start of with e happenings today, nothing much. had e-math test... was kinda okay in a sense that i CAN past dat is. n theres a-math... yeah wid dat big chunk of paragraph up dere, had dat "talk" wid dat person durin a-math.. guess those in my class or close 2 me shld noe who it is anyway. repeating kelly clarkson's song in my wmp. where is your heart? ROCKS (:

TIRED saturday. so so so SLEEPY.

Oh well, what a tired day it was today. Nonetheless this blog has been dead for so long... which is something i particular enjoys doing. Making e blog dead 2 ensure no ones come n read. Not that I'm some freak or wat, to hab a public blog w/o havin anyone read it... besides that, mayb its often wen im troubled dat i come blogging. in a sense or so, im using dis blog. HAH! dis blog's dead anyway, its okay 2 use it e right way isnt it... haiz, words cant express my heartfelt feelings right now. Whats e point.................. sometimes i don't get it. may i ask y do u even come... ish it 4 accompany, music? or something else. I don't know... I know im tired of trying 2 ask u all to come continuously. but i noe i wont giv up... i'll never giv up. i`ll keep on asking. just keep on.......

heh heh. friday ish approaching! woots! definitely lookin 4ward 2 e weekends no matter how bz it ish though. 1stly deres a BBQ on sat.. band one yeas` haha. so today in class.. guang yi gor nvr come =x LOL! so i sat wid wenson! anyway nt much difference lol. den during a-maths lesson. walao it was like messed up =x i bth le! so i've decided 2 use e e-file hidden in my locker 4 ages! den wen i took it out like so weird like dat =x haha! somemore ask wenson 2 teach me how 2 use.. LOL funny sia. kekeke =x after sch.. went mac wid alene n wenson at 883. tok n tok lo.. bout their pri sch dat time.. aldou i not in their pri sch la =x but got many tings so funny de.. bout em =x haha!! yeap. so went back 2 sch n was suppose 2 do e-math project due tmr. den still hav many tings 2 do.. esp 4 band de.. many many tings =x~ lol. at 1st we wanted 2 do powerpoint 4 e presentation.. unfortunately we failed to do so. n den we went out of e computer lab.. realizing something. walao think le can laff =x we forgot 2 take our bags!! but we were almost walkin down liao.. den wen walkin dwn we heard someone calling "amanda.. amanda huang!" so scary u noe.. i turn one big round look here n dere oso no one =x den we all concluded we heard a ghost until we walked back n took our bags liao come out saw li hui jie'mommy n serene! wanna penggg sia! lol. den later went 2 cwp wid wenson n met vanessa n felicia there. so we went mos burger wid em =x they accompany us sia~ so gd! =] so we finally completed e project task 1 at mos burger.. duhh~ =x den wenson met his 1st love dere.. he was smitten wid dis gal yea; keep sayin he very ke ai lol!! =x n u noe e gal shld b less den 5yrs old bah =x hahaha. crap! okay yea~ tired. very- still cant slp sobz. tata n tc 2 all =]

oo great. i almost scared myself 2 deat thinkin i hadnt brought home my fulscap ppr again today. imagine me bein so paranoid; muz b cos of all e common tests coming dat r gettin up 2 my head. duh, sigh. so i did brought home my fulscap. n i m appearing offline in msn 2 refrain myself frm chattin wid others or playin games. yea i guess dis somehow or rather works, aldou not very well. hah. had band lunch today.. was rather saddening considerin e fact dat e seniors r leaving! esp e ones we r close wif.. e clarinetists... haiz. n den took many pics wid frens n mr er n neo. haha they all very cute sia e poses lol. nothin else worth mentioning. =] gone.

tuesday! hmm, in e morning woke up n had dsi bad headahce; or not exactly.. its like only a side of it ish pain? internally yea.. mayb im gonna die.. lol. nevertheless it had continued pain-ing on n off until now. duh, how m i suppose 2 do my a-maths hwk which requires great brain-power!? haha. so today, quite fun laa... in a sense =x du xin nvr come! so e 3/8 ppl sat together.. chattin singing =x tokin bout which jc or poly 2 go. all think so far so soon.. hais, time flies. so mayb by e time i decide bout dis, it`ll b 2 late liao. n den dere was physics. haiz so sad 4 dat subject.. cos i failed e recent test, 7.5/30. dat kinda marks? so sarks. feel like i let down ms tan.. aldou i nvr relli liked her. haha; but den now in physic lessons i realize she's observin me more? or m i thinkin 2 much? cos of my sudden deprovement in dat subj bah. but i've a feeling im gonna deprove in many more subjs. haiz... dne now so tired. cos b4 dat juz went 2 lib wid mich yeelu wp n tz.. 2 meet ccss ppl. very duaki sia they =x ask us 2 wait for so long.. 5.30pm den meet lo. crap only. haha, den now donno how 2 do my hwk, feelin so tired n 'brainless' lol. okay dats all im done. =]

How Did I Fall In Love With You
Backstreet Boys

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

Chorus:
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,
in love...
with you