sundae. belligerent

noe wat dat word [[belligerent]] means? it means unfriendly. yea? should i be one of those kind? haha. i realli donno, mayb i ardy m unfriendly. ain't feelin dat good for 2dae. so mite not type dat polite 2dae. whee =) unable 2 articulate n think properli. haha. probably sth wrong wif me. haii.. i hav no idea myself, it seems i'm gettin back 2 e same old me. but i jus can't seem 2 reach 2 dat height yet. sth in me jus can't go back 2 e same. it makes me remain hu i m. sorri =\ haii. its like a raindrop on e edge of a leaf. on e verge of cryin. yay. tears.. =( but nvm. as stated, raindrop is oni on e edge of e leave. it wun drop. it wun drop if i control it. hold it back. =) i'm distinctly seperating myself up. if there is th dat could save me? it'll oni save e other side of me. theres owaes one part of me dat is so deep dat it seemed 2 have vanished. jus asked hakim whether theres test dis week. well theres math test tomorrow all on graph. gosh =/ nowadaes everyting i sae resembles 2 opposite me. hmm. =) mayb some stuffs i rite here mite be wat i wan 2 sae. but i don relli care anywae. done my chinese letter writing. still got math hwk. well how do i do it? haii. jus realized dat for teacher's dae band gonna perform. well i'm not in it =) guess wat e dm told me. i'm suprised she'll tell me dat actually. dead-beat suprised. "oh... cos actualli a few frens mahx den we deciding to play... budden a few not nice.. so we sit together and choose ppl lor... choose those closer to us... de lor.." n she told me dat. wen obviously i not in e performance. well.. how nice dat sounds. sigh. nvm.. i don relli got offended by it. cos practically she wanted 2 imply dat i'm not relli closer 2 her n "i m e few not nice" or wateva. =) i tink all mah close frens r in e performance. =) don relli haf any hard feelings on it.. as long as they're not relli sayin bout me. i no comments. nothin much 2 do anymore. guess i'll stop typin n shut my brain 2 studie. bye