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jus decided 2 rite another post. donno y.. jus feel like writin since its a fridae n i'm kinda free dat is.. jus feel like goin back 2 e past sia. in pri-sch. life so much simpler n better =) these daes.. i seemed to be lost 4 words. drowned by myself. even unhappiness towards others vanished in me. i donno. feel no point in gettin all worked up n pissed by others. life is gettin nowhere. haii.. depression? happiness/sadness. all results 2 e same ting. feelings. emotions? everyting above us is jus a mask. i realize ppl nowadaes includin me has multiple masks. hide awae frm e true self. it doesn't matters anywae. i've seen 2 much of dis now.. i hate it myself. but hopelessly, whu would realize? all my actions r e opposite of me nowadaes. saggitaurius r known as happy-go-lucky n optimistic.. n e horoscope is realli correct in a fact. i used 2 be like dat. a true saggitaurian.. lol. but i don even hav a idea wat i'm realli thinkin or feeling. maked by another me. i wonders if i'm tryin 2 isolate myself sumtimes. okie.. maybe not relli. theres still a part of me hu wans 2 go on n be as normal. but my life has chged. relli chg.. i noe it myself.. i found e chg in others myself.. i chged my attitude too. maybe made it worse? hah. for better or worse.. i'm still me, jus dat same me.. realized i'm seriously alone u noe? alone in myself. alone in my heart. alone in my mind. its jus me.. n still me. pour out troubles 2 myself. it takes a great effort 2 even truely smile nowadaes. i don tink i had truely smiled dis few daes. smiling is jus an outerior picture of u. u can smile. but wat happens wen u smile yet in u.. u r actually cryin. theres jus too much of a fake image on e outside. well, i donno. -vOicewithin