ello

beautiful sundae i guess. hah.. wat a dae 2 start wif.. its 1pm. i haben even bathe yet! haii.. well.. mich sarah n wp dey all gonna go out to celebrate tz's bdae. but how come i don feel any enthusiam in goin out wif em anymore? yea. not anymore perhaps. nothin personal, jus a chg of feeling. ytd should hav stormed off myself wen mich said she don wanna go home yet. i noe she wanted 2 play bball wif tz or watsoeva. at least giv me a reason nxt time. dou i could hav felt like an idiot waitin there till 6pm for all of em. in e process of waiting peter sat there oso.. n i guess he could made a pretty good fren huh? he told me i looked like miss tan conductor =.= if i had long hair look more like. den i was like so sian diao.. where got look like miss tan sia.. somemore i don like miss tan.. lol. n he n i were observin e small boi play wif his soccer ball.. e small boi so cute one.. he keep kickin e ball up into e sky, if i wasn't wearin skirt i would hav joined e small kid play instead. i rmbed how i used 2 kick wateva balls up into 2 sky.. still tink dat its waee fun! den wen mich n e rest finally stopped playin bball.. or so i thought.. they wasted time.. lottas time. n e ting which made me most infuriated was dat wen they were all standin there n talkin.. n den i was like askin mich can go liao anot.. cos in e 1st place she said she promise 2 go by 6.00pm? yet.. i waited 4 her till 6.10pm or sth.. n i din sae a ting yet.. den wen she was bout 2 go.. all of em had 2 waste time.. on wp's hair. which was like.. haii.. n now.. get 2 e point y i was angry.. i told n asked mich.. in a tone dat was loud enuff 2 be heard of cos. yet she.. ignored me. i was seriously pissed by ppl hu those dat yar? i mean.. if she had no intention of goin home wif me at all.. y cant she tell me directly. i don really blame her or wat. maybe its my fault.. well.. its owaes my fault k ppl? nobody ever blames themselves or wateva.. n i'm sure no 1 ever blames dat person 4 anyting too. shes 2 perfect? ha ha ha. whee! shes e best yar? i relli donno. i don wan anyone to noe me.. yea.. n i realized i m startin 2 hate ppl hu makes ppl like them.. like dat person. i donno wats wrong now.. maybe its jus me or wat huh? haii.. hey i noe i'm not dat likable or wateva. e gal other den me was owaes e one.. i donno wat 2 sae. certainly not jealousy. jus tired of e whole lot of ppl. i knew mich owaes prefered her better den me as a fren lar.. i no remarks 2 dat lor.. cos i don care bout it a lot. so maybe e whole ting dat happened ytd left me wif a conclusion. *((my own conclusion))* i'm not gonna post it here of cos. but it'll be related wif e whole big picture later. haii.