ARGH. fustrated!!!

`+((its owaes e same. wen will it chg?))+ hey i'm askin e question back at myself again i guess.. wateva it is i tell myself. it'll always end wif a question mark.. =/ sounds weird. syu wanna quit band. quitting band. i'm too hopeless n useless to make an improvement.
dats wat she think it is.. certainly not. if u're jus sick n tired of e conductor's scoldin n stuff den dats relli 2 weak of u. a person hu jus sae he/she is quittin jus like dat u think its worth it? if it was me i'll prove e conductors wrong alrite. 3rd clarinets here n there? so wat? wth man. 3rd clarinets not contributing n all e shiddy stuff e conductor told us. well so? as long as u noe u try ur best can ardy lar. so scared 4 wat? wan scold let em scold lar. i noe mr earl can scold until make ppl seems pathetic but one daes if he does dat to me i'll practise n prove him back ok? if it still doesn;t works out i'll stare at e conductor everytime he conduct n diaon him lar? i mean it. even if someone cant plaes don need 2 sae them until like "hopeless" n "useless" dis sorta tings rite? he said dat to one of our seniors. hear ardy oso feel damn angry lar. cos personally i take comments like that very seriously. i relli put it to heart. no offence sia, so if i c someone like scoldin ppl until so lousy i will feel very f up oso. cos dat person hu is scoldin others haben even spare a tot 4 others' feeling. so syu.. wateva e conductor saes, spit at them if u don feel ike listenin 2 their comments? n i mean it gurl, idiots hu don spare a tots 4 others r e most sucky n idiotic moronic f**kin arse in e whole world. cos they simply sux. =) jus practise hard! n sure can make it. don quit over dis. theres relli no reason for dat. u're oni feelin lousy cos of e words of e conductor. jus pretend u r hearin some dogs barkin n everyting is ALRITE. okie? =)